Love the Struggle

Joy in Forgiveness of Israel’s (my) Sins

Praise the LORD!

Oh, give thanks to the Lord, for He is good!
For His mercy endures forever.
–Psalm 106:1

It has been just over a year since I made the decision to accept the call of God as an adult.  This past year has had more ups and downs than any other year of my life.  In my pursuit of God I have moved across the country, met many new people, switched jobs a few times and completed a semester of Bible College.  I’ve had many different struggles—some spiritual, some mental, some physical (body, mind, soul) and some all three.  To be honest sometimes I hate the struggle and ask myself, “What am I doing here?”

I recently had a very clear call from God to ministry.  Immediately after Satan’s wretched arrows begin to sting like hell—literally.  I have been under spiritual assault from the enemy for the last month.  He is trying to rob my joy and sanity.  He is trying every trick in the book to convince me to question the word of God—and often to question the existence of God at all.  He tells me I don’t deserve the favor of God and that I am not worthy of God’s grace.  And you know what? He’s right.  I don’t deserve the favor of God and I am not worthy of God’s grace but that does not mean God’s grace for me does not exist.

Time and time again the Lord has reminded me, My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.”  Thank God He is strong because there have been times this last month that I have felt weaker than ever before.  I have realized that I literally cannot fight any battles alone.  I myself am not capable of beating these struggles—but yet I set out on my own again and again.  We are very predictable creatures.  We never learn from other’s mistakes.  We insist on learning from our own experiences.   This is our human nature—to be curious and yearning for new experiences.  We are not satisfied with complacency even when in a place of peace.  I am not satisfied with one little taste of the Lord’s grace.  I cannot sit and be fine with the grace I experienced last year, and so I ask again, I seek again, I knock again.  I pursue God.  The struggle comes when I am pursuing God and thinking I’m doing everything right but not seeing the results I am expecting.  God does not work that way.  One thing I’ve learned is that if you’re expecting God to work one way then you can almost always expect it to happen differently.   This is life—it never goes according to our plans, it goes according to His plan.  Peace will be found when we accept this:

Trust the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. –Proverbs 3:5

I recently heard it said, “Don’t hate the struggle; love the struggle because the struggle means you’re His.”  As long as we are being used for the furtherance of the Kingdom there is going to be a struggle.  There will be a struggle because hell is not happy when we grow up or mature spiritually and get closer to God.  Love the struggle!  Giving up is easy but giving up is not what we were made for.  It’s not who we are.  We are His!  We are the children of God.  Raise your hands and give thanks for though we fail again and again the Father’s love for us endures forever!

So He led them through the depths,
As through the wilderness.
 He saved them from the hand of him who hated them,
And redeemed them from the hand of the enemy.
-Psalm 106:9-10

3 thoughts on “Love the Struggle

  1. Cindy Powell

    “For I am confident of this very thing, that He who began a good work in you will perfect it until the day of Christ Jesus.” (Phil. 1:6 NASB). Not always easy, but so comforting to know the outcome is already secure. He wins with any hand! Love you and so proud of your commitment to persevere and grow through the journey.

  2. nopew

    This lesson is so important, and may Jesus be praised that it has come your turn to learn it. For example, I know dozens of clergy who have been brutalized by what Dr. Lloyd Rediger labelled “clergy killers’, and when I talk to them I emphasize that this attack only happens when the Spirit moves in a servant’s life. Ironically it means they were really serving Jesus. Usually they must leave that place, though, as clergy killers will never give up till they kill. Be heartened, for so they treated the prophets who were before you, so to speak.
    I cling to this, in the thick of it God’s peace that goes beyond human thinking rests deep within, and that cannot be taken away.

  3. admin

    It is during the struggle, that we become more like Jesus. It causes us to become more humble and God dependent. A caterpillar is in a cocoon and has to struggle to emerge. The process helps develop its ability to fly. Without the push, to leave the confines of the chrysalis, the butterfly is unable to fly. What we go through, gives us a special edge and closeness to help others through the same thing. The enemy only confirms what God is saying. Looks like you are in the right place!


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