Yesterday I wrote about questioning the Lord with where we are in life and our current circumstances—job, church, relationships, ministries, living and financial situations. It can be read here. God seemed to use the post to encourage a lot of people so praise the Lord! This morning He has led me to share a short testimony about a season I went through recently. I hope this can encourage you to continue seeking the Lord even in times of doubt—in fact those seasons of doubt are when we should be pressing in even more. I know that with myself when I have entered a season of doubt it is usually because I have not been hearing from God, and as a result of failing to hear Him I start to doubt the things He has told me in the past. If you are in one of those seasons right now I would encourage you to never lose hope. God will show up.
About a year ago God put a clear call on my life to move to Georgia from California. My relationship with the Lord was strong at this point and I was quite excited to see what He had in store. My wife and I followed His leading and packed everything up and moved cross country. The whole ride there the presence of God was with us and I was very encouraged by this. However after I arrived it was not as I thought. Not Georgia, but my relationship with God. It was as if He disappeared. Here I was who had traveled across the country and left everything that was familiar to follow Jesus. But Jesus was nowhere to be found. It’s not that I wasn’t getting fed. I was reading my bible and going to an awesome little church. I was fellowshipping with other believers but I didn’t have that personal communion with the Lord. What was wrong I thought?
I prayed and had people pray for me. I figured it was just an adjusting period and I would find that communion back pretty soon. But I didn’t. This went on for a couple months and the Lord was nowhere to be found. I started getting very anxious and depressed and from this I started to doubt everything. What was I doing here on the other side of the country? Why did I even move? Is God even there? This got worse and worse but I did not give up. I remained faithful with prayer and reading my bible and then one morning out of nowhere—God was there.
I woke up at about 5am and checked my phone. I had an email notification of a blog that I followed. I started reading it and though I don’t remember what it said, God spoke to me through it. From that His presence filled the room. I had never felt the glory of God so thick before. I started crying and had to leave the room so I didn’t wake up my wife. I went into the bathroom and God followed me in there. He remained there with me for a good 2-3 hours. I cried to Him, talked to Him and really just hung out with the Lord for a couple hours. I remember being like a little kid frantically saying, “Don’t ever leave me again!”
The reality of that is that He never had. He was with me the whole time but for whatever reason I just wasn’t “feeling” His presence. It’s important to know that whenever we do not seem to be hearing from the Lord and we are not feeling His presence it never means He is not with you. He loves His children and always watches over them. He will though from time to time withdraw His presence from us to test us and teach us things.
2 Chronicles 32:31 says, God withdrew from him, in order to test him, that He might know all that was in his heart.
If you’re going through one of these seasons today I would encourage you to remain hopeful. God’s presence will show up. He hasn’t left you. Keep pressing into the Lord and you will come out of this in a stronger communion than you have ever had before. I pray that this post would speak to you and even so that the presence of God would be ushered into your heart as you read these words.
Those the Father has given to Me will come to Me, and I will never reject them. –John 6:37
God is with you now. May the veil be removed and give you eyes to see in Jesus name.
- Where Are You Lord? (iwanttobelieveingod.com)
- The House On The Rock “The Experience 2012” (bummyla.wordpress.com)
- Hymn. God Reveals His Presence Let Us Now Adore Him (bummyla.wordpress.com)
- God Never Left the Building (morrisonsdm.wordpress.com)
- His heart was lifted up in the ways of the Lord. 2 Chron. xvii. 6. (lacykitkat.wordpress.com)