Oh Lord, what is it that keeps me from you?
My spirit is in distress and cries out for you.
I am desperate for your truth and for your presence.
There are too many things that burden me to carry them alone. Please take these off of my load.
I get anxious in my search for you because I sense there is more, but it seems so hard to tap into the deeper realms of the Spirit. You promise if I search I will find you. How much longer must I wait? How long must I search?
You have come before and blessed me but now you seem so distant. My memory is fading. I don’t know what to do when I can’t see you. I cannot live off my past encounters. Just as a child is not satisfied with one show of affection from their mother, I am not satisfied with only the remembrance of your presence. You are alive, living and breathing as I am made in your image. I desire alive, living and breathing communion, friendship and companionship, perfect love.
I can’t do this alone. So again tonight I go to sleep waiting, in expectation and hope to glimpse your face and catch a word of your voice.
I will stay positive and meditate on those things that are lovely, noble, just and true.
I know you will come again so I will wait patiently as a boy waiting for his father to come home.
Only truth… only the Truth will set me free!