This is my commandment, that you love one another as I have loved you. -John 15:12
It is a choice to pick up an offense. There is a certain man who came and joined us in treatment recently. It is not my intent to bad mouth anyone but I must do some “flushing” here. This man has pushed my patience. I have not yet expressed my feelings to him but I have been tempted.
It’s interesting that today in group we were talking about confrontation and the avoidance of it. This man has an entirely different worldview than mine and I’m fine with that. Many of us here have different worldviews but we focus on the similarities that we have – one of them being addiction.
I am not in a Christian recovery center and in many ways I am glad about that. This is where God has placed me. There are some Christians here and many who are not. Some of these have asked me questions and I’ve been able to share with them. I see that as the appropriate time to talk. I’m not threatened by different worldviews and am quite interested in the way others view the world. But what has irritated me with this guy is the inappropriate times he finds it necessary to “preach” his worldview.
We will be in group talking about recovery skills, or something else recovery related, and somehow multiple times he has switched the subject and begins talking about his new age philosophies. He will talk about the universe and “the divine” who speaks to him while on drugs.
It has tested my patience! I find it quite annoying, disruptive and distracting but I humbly ask God for His love towards this person. It’s hard to love some people but God certainly loves everyone of us no matter how screwy our view of Him may be. Tonight I pray for compassion and love towards this man and that His eyes may be opened to the love of the Father.
**This is a journal entry previously written during my stay in an alcohol abuse treatment center. I’ll be posting many more in the coming days. All entries will be linked here.**