I know how to be abased, and I know how to abound. –Philippians 4:12
I’m learning some truth to this verse in this season of life. I’m going through things that in past seasons would have exhausted me and brought me down, but God has strengthened my spirit through past trials so that I am able to stand in the reality of Christ in me. Through this reality I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. (Phil 4:13)
This world is beautiful but at times it can seem that everywhere we go we run into darkness. When this happens I turn inward—to Christ in me—and ask the Spirit not only to give me comfort but to release His light to those around me and change the atmosphere.
And so, I do my best to do all things without complaining and disputing, that I may become blameless and harmless, a child of God without fault in the midst of a crooked and perverse generation, among whom I shine as a light in the world. (see Phil 2:14-15)
I choose not to slander, I choose not to gossip or join in the complaining. I keep quiet amongst those who partake. I ask the Lord for strength to be swift to hear and slow to speak. And I ask for wisdom that I may only speak life instead of childish, defensive words rooted in insecurities. Christ is my security. I do not need the affirmation of those around me. They look for affirmation of other unbelievers to affirm their own insecurities rooted in their guilt of choosing unbelief in a God that they are mad at. We must be careful not to get mad at God because of misunderstandings. We were not made to understand everything. We were made to live and to love.
I’ve caught myself daydreaming here and there about being old and close to the end of my earthly life. To some this may appear morbid but I’ve just lost my fear of death and I long for that day that I can go and be face to face with God. But I know that it’s a long journey from where I’m at and that day. For I am hard-pressed between the two, having a desire to depart and be with Christ, which is far better. Nevertheless to remain in the flesh is more needful for you. (see Phil 1:23-24)
So I seek to know Him more in this world. I seek to have His will done on earth as it is in heaven. I seek to be conformed to the image of His Son. (see Rom 8:17) I seek to not only live for Him but to live with Him—to walk with Him. I seek to live His will for my life. To change the lives of youth and speak life into the lost and the seekers of meaning.
You all are partakers with me of grace. So be confident of this very thing, that He who has begun a good work in you will complete it until the day of Jesus Christ. (see Phil 1:6-7)
Live in the reality of His love.